Feb 26, 2007

It Can Only Get Better, From What I've Been Told

I could have written this all over again, with some minor adjustments, but I saw no need. Thought it would be good for me to try and put a positive spin on my otherwise crappy day.

15 Reasons why today has been better than yesterday

1. Horrible beer/wine hangover has finally subsided.

2. I ate for the first time since Saturday night, and so far, the food is staying where it should.

3. I was reminded that my troubles are not as life damaging as the troubles of someone else I know.

4. I only cried once, and I'm blaming it on the radio.

5. The sun is shining, which has given me a bit of energy to get through the rest of the day.

6. If I don't count today, there's only one more day until payday.

7. My friends comments and concerns about my recent break-up are actually making sense to me, and I have faith that one day I might actually listen, and let it all sink in.

8. Although the cat has taken to eating all inanimate objects, she is no longer in heat.

9. I have won 3 games of online Scrabble, unlike yesterday when I lost about 15.

10. I do not feel as if I have to be physically restrained in order to stay away from the telephone or the computer, thus doing something stupid.

11. Although I don't whole-heartedly believe it, I'm starting to think I'm a smaller piece of shit than I led myself to believe.

12. I have finally started cleaning the mess that we made at our houseparty on Saturday, and we have now been upgraded from condemned, to perfectly livable.

13. I found my spare keys, and got the broken key out of the lock on the car.

14. My body is so tired, I'll have no choice but to get a good sleep tonight.

15. I recieved a nice compliment from a stranger, and that made my day.

Feb 10, 2007

Twenty Sentences

After reading Saviabella's "20 Sentences" entry, I told her I was going to copy her, and do my own. And I did. The basic idea is to write twenty sentences about twenty different people, not mentioning what sentence is about what person. This little exercise really got me thinking about all the wonderful, and not so wonderful people, I have encountered in my life. Although I couldn't write a sentence for all of them, I was reminded that their actions have affected me in some way, at some point in my life, and I hope that I affected them in some way as well. I am grateful for all of the people I have met in my journey, and it was nice to take the time to reflect on that.

I know you are just looking out for me, but sometimes, I need you to mind your own business.

Even though you can take an eternity to get your point across, you always make sense to me in the end.

The fact that you put up with my insecurities, absolutely baffles me.

Your funeral was one of the happiest days of my life.

You want to be the girl with the most cake.

I wish I had spent more time with you, but I am grateful for the time I did take out of my busy teenager schedule to be with you.

I will forever regret saying the words, "Don't worry, I'll never be back", but I won't dwell on it, because deep down, we both knew I didn't mean it.

I sometimes wonder if, had we met as adults, would I still have fallen so hard for you and thought of you as my soulmate?

I worry daily that the next time I see you will be at your funeral, so I am going to come looking for you very soon.

I want you to live your life to the fullest and put you and your needs ahead of everyone else.

Even on my worst days, a smile, a hug or even a high-five from you can cheer me up almost instantly.

You make me want to be a better me, and I love you for that.

We have had our ups and downs, but I think that our friendship is stronger because of it.

Don't worry about being perfect, or being what you think other's expect you to be.

Because of you and your beliefs, I learned to be more passionate about the things that I care about.

I will never forget how you took advantage of me, but I have forgiven you, and I think I understand why you did what you did.

There have been times when we went years without seeing each other, but when we get together, it's like we saw each other yesterday.

Thank you for yelling at me, and making me feel like I was capable of being something special.

When I am with you, I become excited about the prospect of being a mother.

I never had a biological sister, but I have you, and that's good enough for me.

Feb 4, 2007

Working on Learning to do Nothing

I could very well be productive in some way today. However, at this point in my Sunday, I just don't see it happening. Hey, I already awoke fairly early, had some breakfast, drove myself home, loved up my overly needy cat, started construction on my fourth SimTower of the week and hunted down a *music video I have been searching for since 1986. I'd say that that's enough production for one Sunday morning.

On the other hand, the mound of clean laundry on my bed is begging to be put away before it completely engulfed in cat hair, my refridgerator, and my malnourished body, are asking that I go to the grocery store and purchase some food (preferrably vegetables), and the bathroom has requested my presence, as soon as the cleaning products find their way out of the hall closet. All of these mundane chores just seem like they will take too much effort on my part though, and I may just put them off until tomorrow. Or Tuesday. Or 2008.

This weekend has been so very relaxing, and I don't really want to mess with it. I have enjoyed two consecutive nights out with good friends, good food, and good conversation, and have successfully awoke each morning hangover free. I spent a cold, blustery Saturday afternoon at Chapters, to finally use my Xmas gift cards. I have slept and slept and slept some more, and am contemplating having a nice afternoon nap before heading to Sunday supper with Mr. Head and his family.

Well, that's it then. The decision has been made. Chores and shopping can wait. My body says relax, my brain says I deserve it, and the cat says she's lonely and wants me to stay home and cuddle with her, if only for a few hours.

Happy Sunday, everyone.

*For more on my music video search, go check out my Vox page.